Who am I? I'm YOU
So here's the scoop...I began a yoga practice when I was a kid, 14 years old, in order to try and change my body. I didn't like my body, in fact I've struggled with my relationship with my body my whole life. I suspect many of you have as well. Not only was it in effort to change my body, it was also part of a longing to feel like I belonged to something indefineable, something bigger than myself. I didn't even have words to describe what I was looking for. I do now...CONNECTION. Every summer of my childhood, we spent our weekends at the cottage. At any given moment if you were looking for me, I was roaming the shore, sitting on the dock fishing, or paddling around the lake in my canoe. I realize the significance of all of it now, I was looking for DIRECTION in how to navigate my way back HOME; to the source of me, to my true nature.
Along the way in my journey from 14-42, I never would have expected to evolve and transform the way I have year after year. My pivotal time in my life was when I decided to truly dive deep into my studies of Ayurveda, out of the driving need I felt in my gut to do something really profound for my personal health. NOW I want to bring what I've learned to you. Want to see what happens when you make change? Check out my video here, look at what my life used to be and where it has come to today. Yes, I'm a real person with REAL issues, and I've used this work to CHANGE my life. So can you.
Eczema Extreme! Before...
Medicine ~ Netra Basti
After...calm, cool, healing
How I came undone...where to start...
I entered the world in a state of imbalance. No joking, I was out of whack from birth. Not only was there confusion in the hospital as to whose child I was (seriously...not kidding!), but I was showing significant signs of STRESS as a baby. I'm not sure if the doctors put it that way to my parents, but it was stress. Babies shouldn't be stressed. For whatever reason, whether it was something I brought forward from a past life or some new lesson to learn, it was obvious that stress would be my shadow for what turned into the majority of my life. When a body is in a state of dis-ease, it shows us signs. The signs of inflammation are the same signs for stress. When inflammation and stress show up in my type of mental/physical/emotional human configuration, in my body, they have had a tendency to show up as massive skin irritations in the form of eczema. This was present when I was a baby. My skin was so dry and irritated, my mother was continually trying to find products to use on me to get it to clear up. Nothing worked. Things would settle, then they would arise again, the continual ebb and flow of shifting into and out of states of balance, healing, wounding and needing repair.
Throughout my life, this state of stress - inflammation - physical symptom of dis-ease has been ever present. If I use the eczema as the example here, take a look at these images.As life would have it, there was a path carved out for me, some may say the path was one I carved for myself in my last lifetime, knowing I needed the opportunity to work through some serious karma, as we all do, and this could be a path to take deeper into self-awareness, learning, growing and healing.
So, when I launched myself on the Ayurveda School path and began a super intensive and demanding program over ten months all while running a business, a household, and trying to save a marriage, guess what happened.....yeah, I got STRESSED. I took it as my opportunity to put the teachings of Ayurveda to a test. Thank you for the opportunity universe! The first image shows me with the most serious case of eczema around both of my eyes (blephritis) that I had ever had. If you look closely, my skin is red like fire, and what you can't see is the blister like formations, and the heat that was coming off my face. It was to say the least, excruciating. There wasn't a cortizone cream strong enough in the world to make this stop. It was a raging inferno, and nothing was stopping its path. Until my friend Janelle, under the guidance of Dr. Rosy, applied Netra Basti; a therapeutic oleation of the eyes with ghee (clarified butter). The dam was made of dough, then the powerful ghee was applied to cover not just my eye but all of the irritated skin surrounding it. Then I opened the eye. The eyes are the gateway to the soul. What happened next was the medicine. The tears that fell from my uncovered eye ran like a waterfall. My soul had been nourished and permitted to release all of the anger, frustration, fear, anxiety and every other emotion I had been holding onto through my eyes, and how I saw not just the world, but saw my life. The release and relief I experienced, I can't even explain. The third image is post-treatment. You can easily see the change in the coloration of my skin, from bright red, which even shows through the ghee, to calmer, cooler, healthier skin. I followed a strict protocol of Netra Basti for several weeks at home, and with courage have been dropping deeper into examining my wounds, to continue the process of letting go, and allowing a self-healing process to occur. My battle with eczema is over. I have not had an incident in over three years. Do I still have healing to do? I know I do, we all do. But this was my test, and it was the medicine's test, and if I had any doubt about the systems I was applying, they were squashed. This is the real deal, it is whole body, soul, mind and essence. That's how you heal. You heal on every single level of yourself. When you do this, you connect deeply with self. That's the CONNECTION!!! To mySELF. To yourSELF.